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weekends.

2010-05-16T23:42:00.003+08:00

Turned into :) mood the rest of the day after I knocked off from work.
1. The last students on both Saturday and Sunday are like this:

Hello cutie.

2. Sambal fried rice for lunch
3. Milk ice with chocolate sauce + strawberry snow ice with fruits from Snow Frost
4. Robin Hood
5. Cheese baked rice for supper at HK Cafe
6. Online loots arrived
7. 2 pairs of new shoes in my collections ♥
8. I will be playing flute again for SIBF competition

It's freezing. Weather has been icy of late. My phlegmey cough isn't getting better either.

friday.

2010-05-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

Today I woke up, continued to laze in bed, dealt with boyfriend's room cleaning, had porridge for early lunch, shopped for ingredients at NTUC (man I really felt like an aunty!), drank bubble tea (yum!), got home, prepared everything for Chocolate Fudge, cleaned up (which was a bitch), got in the shower, facebook-ed, shopped online and looked through the scores for SIBF to pass time before going to work, ate beef + vege with rice for early dinner while listening to The Voice Within by Christina Aguilera and choking up a little, went off for worked, returned back to boyfriend's, and zonked out completely!

My entire day summed up in a sentence within fullstops. Hah. Hungryyy. Hope there's yoghurt in the fridge.

I'm also craving for some red ruby dessert now. Mmm... Khup khup khup.

PS: Inactivity on this blog due to a horribly crummy immune system and DVD marathon in the boyfriend's super smooshy couch that comes with an equally smooshy boyfriend.

PPS: I think I'll never have a successful bake in my life, owing to my failure to stick to proportions. Somehow, a pinch just doesn't feel like the right amount to me, and I ended up adding alot more than I should. *whimper*

weekends in retrospect.

2010-05-03T00:49:00.004+08:00

Location:
Anywhere.

Details:
Lunch at Crystal Jade, breakfast at Delifrance, all time favourite Bak Kut Teh soup for late dinner, revamping closet in Marcus' room, shopping at JB, blues at work, undecided sunshine, Marcus' actions alone that totally cracked me into hysteria, Ip Man 2, Iron Man 2, The Hangover, Monga, Starbucks, and good company.

Currently:
Stomach and throats feel blardi funny, listening to Nickelback, fretting over monetary issue, having the strong urge to play last part of Nuovo Cinema Paradiso on flute, feeling damn fat in tummy, late night chat with an old friend, mad craving for Mac's breakfast meal, binging on packets of spicy seaweeds.

Xx.

dailies.

2010-04-26T01:24:00.001+08:00

A long pause. She looked up through her curtain of dark hair, focusing on nothing.

"There is no black or white." She said quietly. He had to strain his ears to pick up her words. "There is no good or bad. Everything in this physical world is a hybrid of greys and mosiacs. I've lost faith and hope in this place. What has it got to offer me? The best bet the world's got is in its people: And even these have evolved to something so unrecognizable, so different; something that leaves much to be desired."

Silence greeted the end of her speech. Eyebrows meeting in the middle of his forehead in a frown, he cocked his head to the side, staring long and hard at her.

"Why are you so cynical?" His question came out in a rush.

Another long pause. She took a slow drag on her cigarette, perhaps contemplating how to summarize her thoughts without having to prolong the pointless yet (though she couldn't quite figure out why herself) fulfilling conversation. She blew out a stream of blue-grey smoke that wisped around his face.

"Circumstances." She said, stubbing out her butt.

xxx

I've been listening to alot of oldschool music from the likes of Finch, The Julianna Theory, AFI... It's amazing how a certain song or tune can bring back a whole barrage of memories and give you sense of.. Deja Vu?

This week could have been more productive. But I spent the rest of the week just slothing around, maxing out my savings on clothes and food and watching Vampire Dairies' series. Which isn't doing great for my health.

Lunch with Wendy tomorrow! Miss that Chubby Face so much. ♥

on an idle friday.

2010-04-23T23:16:00.000+08:00

dailies.

2010-04-19T02:57:00.000+08:00

Friday
It's been forever since I last slept till in the afternoon. I continued to laze in bed and felt blissful because I did not have any arduous activities lining up in the day, as at night I only had to travel for lessons with students.

Bak Kut Teh soup for supper and Kick Ass to end the day! ♥

Saturday
One of those brilliant days.

1.
Almost 12 fucking hours of endless lessons with the kids. During the dinner break, I had no choice but to anticipate an utterly redundant and painfully unenjoyable conversation with parents of the kids, where I had to fend off those questions ranging from the mundane "so how's the lesson going on for my child?" to the absurd "when can my child be upgraded to XXXX?". By doing so it caused my 30min dinner break to be shorten by a good 15min, so you can imagine the amount of verbal diarrhea they had subjected on me.

Really hate it when every week I gotta fend off same questions by the same person. zzZzzZz.

2.
After the dinner at bf's place, I went to switch on my laptop, only to find that the lcd screen crrrrracked!!@^%*&#!

FML TTFM.

Eventually bf's big lcd tv became my laptop with the use of TV-out cable. I'm so gonna hog his tv till I saved up enough moolah to get a new laptop.

I concur that Sony is really a lousy brand for laptop.

3.
My new clothes got dyed with my shorts' colour. Not only mine was affected but others' also... :(

Sunday
Knocked off from work at 3pm. Had late lunch at Northpoint's ljs with bf before heading for the show Future X-Cops. (I'm giving it a rating of 3.5/5)

At night when little Nadyya and Rayyan were back, bf got them to bite me!!@^&@%*&

dailies.

2010-04-05T04:19:00.006+08:00

Thursday
I loved Thursday, which saw me curling up on the crib in front of the tv watching American Idol and America's Next Top Model, before going for Clash Of The Titans. Don't judge me. I find it strangely fulfilling.

Friday
Woke up at near 12pm. Spent the day with bf playing online games and shopping around the mall. Other than that, I was left annoyed the whole day with scratchy throat and hackling cough.

Saturday
Earlier on in the day, I was feeling a tad lousy when the boyfriend seemed reluctant to go anywhere else and naturally, the little grace I had in me had gone of the window. All's well again after he's found a win-win solution for us.

I haven't been able to stop swooning over the design of boyfriend's watch since the start, and he got me the ladies' version one! I was grinning with smile from ear to ear I almost squealed so loudly.

Dined at Sakae Sushi before going for movie.

Sunday
The past days signalled the start of my liberation from work. Staying at home on an idle Sunday being a complete slob with snacks all around me seemed like a great idea.

And I'm insanely craving for pizza / sausage+mash from chippeas / clam chowder soup from ljs. I hate it when midnight hunger strikes!

airheaded.

2010-04-01T14:05:00.000+08:00

I feel very lacking in thoughts of late.

After the grueling wake at 9 - work - lunch - work - home - sleep - repeat routine for the past months, I'm a bit at a loss as to what to do with myself now that there's nothing on my plate.

I'm not complaining about free time. I'm just... bowled over by the newness of this whole I'M FREE thing. Goodness me. I somehow feel guilty after having produced absolutely nothing at the end of the day. I almost wish I was working again. Almost, but not quite. :p

On a delightful note, I am really excited about opening this new chapter of my life. It's back to musical lifestyle for me. Song composition would be so much simpler rather than struggling with layering on the keys!

once more, with feeling.

2010-03-25T00:31:00.004+08:00

As I got up in the morning today, I thought: If only you were the omnipresent being - like mist or wind, I would spend every waking moment just desperately taking in great big gulps of air in a bid to saturate every part of my being with your essence.

things that warm my heart.

2010-03-04T00:49:00.000+08:00

This is sooooooo cuteeeeeee!!!!

PAIN!@€$%

2010-03-03T01:37:00.001+08:00

Woke up with scratchy throat. It hurts to breathe. Zzzzzzz.

I knew I shouldn't have gone with excessive binging before my body fully recovered from the 4hrs-of-sleep day. SIGH!

I WANT TO CUDDLE UP IN BED AND SLEEP.

grace and love

2010-02-24T11:35:00.001+08:00

Grace means remembering the big and little things in life your loved ones bestow upon you. All too often i have been quick to point out my dissatisfaction at feeling unappreciated - when I've never really appreciated what the other party has done for me.

So here goes, the next paragraph dedicated to my long-suffering man who has been with me throughout.

:::: I know I can't thank you enough, but I appreciate how you always make an effort to make me feel better, so I would not be struggling too much with emotional baggage. I appreciate how you always forgive me time and again whenever it is through my own hands I create the mess that plays a large part in determining our relationship. I still get the warm fuzzy feeling when you are in bed earlier than me but yet always somehow wake up for a nano-second to place your arm around me - only to drift back into unconsciousness immediately. Lying on your shoulder and chest is therapeutic and I cannot begin to express how blessed I feel.

It's Wednesday. To say that you don't cross my mind at all would be a blatant lie.

dailies

2010-02-14T01:13:00.001+08:00

last week, I:

spent over $200 within a day on shopping but i honestly couldn't find joy in retail therapy.

have been too reluctant to leave the comfortable bed that i ended up cabbing to work.

had an ugly row with the boyfriend, followed by some funny expressions made by us then burst out laughing.

had stingray and cockles for supper and they gave me the runs.

this week, I:

got insulted by a random trannie when she said i'm 25!!@%#^

received both good and bad news at the same time from bf.

haven't been sleeping well so i had to wake up with dreamy eyes the next day.

received a call from someone i absolutely did not wish to hear from.

yesterday:

bathed.

changed.

attended piano lesson.

watched percy jackson and the lightning thief.

went hunting for shoes.

sleep. sleeeeeeeeeeeeep.

the loots

i truly hope the new owner will take good care of you like a baby... =(

2010-02-10T01:05:00.000+08:00

Fast forward to the middle part. The start is rubbish.

Our biggest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our dark that frightens us most. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people don't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine like children do. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously allow others to do the same. And we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberated others. - Coach Carter

Though I don't entirely agree with this, some parts do strike me hard.

yay & nay.

2010-01-24T03:27:00.001+08:00

YAY:

1) m specially made an effort to stay up till 4am just to wake me up for medication. :')

2) the scrambled egg m cooked before i left for work is so fucking tasty. i could eat it everyday with bread for breakfast.

3) currently saving up for oversea trip with bf yayyyyyyy.

4) bitching session with wendy over supper was awesome.

5) done with shopping for cny clothes!

NAY:

1) unfortch, my cny clothes are all in BLACK. :S

2) it's only the second month of work and i feel like i've been here 20 months. i frigging have a backlog!!!

3) feeling irritated with myself for a multitude of reasons. or, it could be medicine playing tricks on my brain.

4) i don't seem to be recovering well and have not had much appetite to eat.
5) slightly less than 24 hours since i last saw marcus and damn already i am missing him RARRRGHHHHH

me is happy because __________!

2009-12-26T04:02:00.002+08:00

a) i am totally maximising the use of my off days to the fullest

b) the bf and i have been spending considerable amount of time together the past few days

c) paycheck's rolling in soon

d) i got my kate spade purse

e) all of the above

and happy birthday joey! thankyou for tolerating me being muddleheaded during work. :p

ain't that fat either

2009-12-18T00:50:00.001+08:00

i know of late i haven't been eating much. i'd perhaps shave off 1/3 of my plate of food during lunch and i'd feel like throwing up.

it's not me. it's the food, but to describe the quality of food as lacklustre would be an understatement.

the dirty table littered with crumbs of food and so doesn't do much to whet my appetite either. but mostly it's because i haven't had the appetite to eat, no thanks to my on-and-off moodswings.

home cooked food ftw.

:)

2009-12-14T00:47:00.000+08:00

part of the conversation between m and i:

m: you know that guy?

me: no

m: he and Tom Cruise acted in The Last Samurai.

me: o... (like i care how well known or whatever he is)

m: and that was about ten years ago.

me: .... -_-!!!^%$*&@#

recent flicks:

- New Moon

- Storm Warriors

- Zombieland

i haven't been doing anything out of the norm for a long time. due to time consuming responsibilities such as work, time spent with marcus is very laid back, a nice reprieve from what i have been up to during my summer.

catching up session with julia was great too!

Opus IV (pt 2)

2009-12-04T00:39:00.000+08:00

i'm aware i look morbid in this photo but terrell yap is being a sneak peep here!! while we girls were busy applying war paint on our faces and everything.

flautists in black

first working experience

2009-12-03T01:06:00.000+08:00

i love how carefree and relaxing this job is, with no intense feeling the moment i proceeded to my workplace.

alot of amusing stories from the colleagues and superiors that certainly piqued my interest.

it feels as though time seems to pass quickly even when i am doing absolutely nothing.

wooooot! me love.

at the same time i was wishing that my bed would suddenly materialise in front of me, no thanks to the very bad idea of staying up late the day before to play facebook's games but heck, at least i managed to survive the whole long working hours, no?

so, is saying goodbye to the very first job an easy decision to make?

Opus IV

2009-12-02T12:58:00.002+08:00

(pictures are from terell's and irene's fb.)

the concert was a blast and awesomeness ness ness NESS!!!!

enjoyed it, but not with the bloody ultimate killer heels of 4.5" height.

the saxophone quintet and solo sounded smexy,

everyone looked cute with mickey mouse hairband,

esther and I managed to play all running notes comfortably I presumed,

and su ling and xin yi done a great job for their solos on Yagi Bushi!

to my dearest flautists: thank you for everything thus far, especially these past weeks. I've seen you guys grow so much, musically, and it's truly amazing. I'm so proud of you. thanks for my favourite toblerone chocos too! love.

after the photo taking session I rushed off to meet marcus outside VCH. thankfully he did not whine about it when he waited for at least twenty minutes for me. chatted over supper at MacD as the kiosk was closed early to purchase any movie ticket.

his negative comments about the band/choir performances were bordering ludicrous though. :s

dailies

2009-11-28T00:16:00.002+08:00

after marcus knocked off from his work, we had a mundane date shopping for my formal wear, followed by Case 39 and dinner.

i'm really glad to have him with me, despite the fact that there's a lot of times where due to either of our impassiveness we had to fight.

it's 28th today and it's our 17th month together. thankyou dear for the huge surprise on my 17th birthday. =)

and it's serene's birthday too!

i needa stop wanting something and then regretting when i finally get it, so it isn't as cracked up as i thought it would have been.

dailies

2009-11-18T23:53:00.002+08:00

monday

woke up specially early to clear the terribly heaped mess in the living room (after parents' nagging for almost one year), before cursorily prepared myself to meet marcus.

hate it when we fight due to my lateness that caused us not able to get better seats in cinema. my apology did not appease him a single bit and it was thoroughly infuriating, even though it was my fault.

totally awed at the way Roland Emmerich directed 2012. i love how John Cusack and his whole family managed to escape the catastrophe too swiftly.

aglios olios pasta for dinner.

tuesday

the band practise today wasn't half that bad. don't really fancy the idea of having practises from 9 to 5 though.

got almost all the running notes killed!

wednesday

it's 12 more days to Opus and the way they take time to settle down for the combine like they are kind of in their own world irks me.

running notes are no longer the problem to me but hitting low notes are. i could've projected all sounds of 17 notes written on the score but the conductor could only hear 14. asdfghjkl.

anyway, marcus will be passing me his current iPhone 2G (i don't need phone with 3G function btw) after he's gotten his iPhone 3GS! WEEEEEEE tell me what's there not to love him!

and he injured his hand for no apparent reason -_- get well soon!

little words that sting.. ouch!

2009-11-17T01:43:00.000+08:00

i am fascinated by one liner that stings.

more felt with less said.

it challenges the thoughts you know..

2009-11-10T21:22:00.003+08:00

my day couldn't get worse than this, could it?

woke up at 6 only to dig through the notes, a phonecall with downright ghastly content, two truly fucked up and delusional boys and a psycho eccentric mother, knocked my little toes against some hard objects twice, and there you are: story of my fucking Tuesday.

in a :) mood today

2009-11-08T23:54:00.003+08:00

1. not a fan of mudpie but the one from Coffee Club is surprisingly nice.

2. someone told me that Cartel's menu has improved a LOT. gonna check it out soon!

3. i love how i nibble away the white halo of sunny side up egg, and then ripping the yellow sphere apart, mixing the delicious lava that flows forth into the noodles. :D

that aside.

i met up with marcus today and it's his treat to sakae sushi. could tell that he was rather exasperated with me flipping the menu book for at least 324672 times before i finally decided on what to order, but the heavenly sakae chawanmushi is definitely not gonna be missed out!

followed by Paranormal Activity, then studied a little (thank goodness my laptop and his comic book could keep him entertained) and chatted over ljs dinner.

couldn't stand the way he tested me on some science questions and it was bloody hilarious lol.

okay and my tummy has exponentially expanded, after eating. alot. feel like i'm more to waddling than walking now.

saturday

2009-11-07T23:39:00.002+08:00

Opus IV by Regent Wind Symphony

30th November 2009, 7.30PM

@ Victoria Concert Hall

Ticket priced at $10

contact me if interested

went for band practise and the feeling was awesome! i got to see the cheek-pinchingly adorable juniors again, and not to forget esther and xinying too!

had lunch with the alumni before heading back home.

spent the rest of saturday staying at home doing absolutely nothing. but nothing else could possibly explain why my eyes were still forced to pull shut even after 6h of afternoon nap.

and i'm not even done with the freaking intonation and killer running notes when the concert is COMING. HALP. Plz?!

a thousand words

2009-11-04T21:54:00.000+08:00

2009-10-31T05:20:00.000+08:00

maybe i shouldn't have jumped straight into the boiling cauldron fueled by our hasty emotional needs. maybe then i'd be able to delve a little deep into psyche, to ready myself for the kind of storm that would await me after the fine weather.

2009-10-28T18:37:00.000+08:00

so it's like i was low in confidence, then found my confidence but lost it again without me knowing it.

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

2009-10-25T00:52:00.000+08:00

fuck exams fuck stress fuck having to work my ass on maths fuck being low on cash fuck sleepless nights fuck blisters fuck greasy junk food that makes me fat fuck vaio and hotmail that take 2385729 years to load a webpage fuck grammar fuck that fucking retards from limbang mac fuck messy everything fuck everything else that has to be done at the last minute fuck horrendously chapped lip fuck that im dissatisfied with everything fuck those i've regretted doing fuck that i have noone to confide in fuck that noone will understand fuck that noone will understand without judging

just got back from overnight studying at mac with julia and aden. it's fucking 1218pm and imma gonna catch some sleep naoz.

/edit

it's leaving me to my riled emotion when the date for Opus concert has been brought forward, which means there's only little time left for practises. but i shan't complain, i get to play the flute again sooooon. :)

late night cravings

2009-10-18T00:37:00.002+08:00

now the only thing i have to get furious about is how best to not to overdose myself excessively with.. oh... heavenly tasted food gifted from heaven.

oyster mee sua

oyster omelette

deep fried pork lard

crab bee hoon

mashed potato

buttery prawns

scrambled eggs topped with caviar

medium-well done steak

bbq stingray

fresh parmesan cheese

root beer float

black sesame filled tang yuan

tau huey

and honeydew steamcake!!! where in sg sells it?? ANYONE KNOWS?!

bahh chaos' ensuing in a week's time! nooooooooo

flicks

2009-10-18T00:24:00.001+08:00

- The Ugly Truth (the reality is: lust over love. look over soul. policies over principles)

- 4bia 2 (was okay. didn't react much to those gruesome scenes except the last part)

- Tsunami At Haeundae (if you know the storyline of The Day After Tomorrow, that is. anyway thanks muthu again for the treat again + the lieeeeeee that we would be catching cloudy with a chance of meatballs)

- Surrogate (another cool weird shit)

in all life's stressful situation,

2009-10-11T16:08:00.002+08:00

we turn to Youtube.

lotr's music is beautiful. it's a wonder how howard shore imagined its music as its to be.

there's always the flip side

2009-10-10T03:00:00.000+08:00

there are days where i'll go 'fuck it, i have enough' and naturally there are days where shit are tolerable and sometimes rose will grow on them (read: valuable lessons from painful experience). of course noone will say everything will be all sunshine and rainbows, but on the flip side, it need not to be unenjoyable and unhealthy as well, right?

briefly.

2009-10-08T00:53:00.000+08:00

1. subway melts with sweet onion and honey mustard sauce smells like BO.

2. feel like long week ahead. felt like long week behind.

3. have been staying up till 3 or 4am almost every day.

4. calculations are going nowhere and they are making my head spin. zzz. i hope i don't fail the exam.

5. i think i have intestinal trouble and shitting problems! bahness just what the fuck is the cause of it????!?!?!?!

6. one more week before serene finally returned from shanghai!! wheeeeeeeeeeeee.

7. julia's =B face with nerdy spec made me feel inspired for my essays. :P

it's Sunday

2009-10-04T12:49:00.003+08:00

because i've been studying like mad and staying up late at night, this is what i've been up to. on a friday night. missing out on the weekends. that's when i'm officially lifeless. i've only got myself blame, and i've unconsciously grown resentful towards myself... nobody asked me to start all these too late. le sigh.

have you ever seen a boy as cute as him? *squeals with excitement*

oh, he's sixteen, by the way.

another series about vampires, but then again, what's not to love? the lead characters are gorgeous. Stephen's got the whole smouldering look going on and Damon's just... wicked.

hello

2009-10-02T13:47:00.001+08:00

i find it rather redundant to blog about my very stale daily routine, something that pissed me off (family matters, some desperate fucks, cmi service at lot1's tbs), and to cite study-related stress as the cause of my eccentric behaviour for the past weeks.

but nice company like them make it up all - leong jia qi, lee jia qi, hansel, wei jie, wen wei, aden and julia.

and the idiotic =B face. apparently making funny faces like this is my undoing, and the =B ended up without the teeth. hmmmmm. i think i can never be as successful as the nincompoops (aden, julia and shu) who can pull it off.

=BBBBBBB

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=87948937429&ref=nf

fuck yeah, i'm alive.

2009-10-01T02:14:00.003+08:00

today, well today, there's something about today. that makes me feel... different. makes me feel alive. if being alive means blinking and seeing, touching and feel, listening and understanding, then yes, i am alive.

release

2009-09-30T02:27:00.000+08:00

you thought that by losing your grip and by channeling all that burdens you - your dreams, your hopes, your dreams, your failures, your disappointments, your lack of faith, your life, your anger into a helium filled sphere, it would go away quietly, gracefully.

i thought so too.

maybe i should stop eating and die

2009-09-26T01:16:00.000+08:00

bacon is so fucking tasty. i could eat it everyday with bread for breakfast.

except that there is no bit of nutrient in it.

and i'd always have my unhealthy makans at MacDonald for dinner for the past weeks. seriously cmi. i need to purify my body soon.

dailies

2009-09-10T17:48:00.002+08:00

don't particularly like this weekdays.

'cause i gonna get another f9 for maths f9 for maths f9 for maths and wanna murder someone!!!!!!

whatever. fuck maths.

story of my week

2009-09-05T00:14:00.001+08:00

enough tears to drown a kitten on Saturday

caught The Proposal, along with subway cookies and Chippeas' cheese sausage with mashed potato on Sunday

stayed home with feeling of having thousands of needles prickling my throat on Monday

droned on maths for few hours on Tuesday

shitty science practical exam on Wednesday, and unfortunately setting eyes upon a PIECE-O-SHIT cuntface

sinful food at chomp chomp on Thursday night

mugging session on Friday and tomorrow

the positive and happy bubble i blew around myself just burst with the most disheartening pop ever.

damn well i'm pissed. damn well i feel like breaking something. damn well i can't fucking handle shit as well as i thought i could. why does it have to go on without halting, without a pause?

and it's clearly evident that you've not learned from your fucking mistakes. how you've all changed.

weary

2009-08-29T23:26:00.000+08:00

i find it really hard to live with myself because of what's happening recently. nobody really knows fully what exactly has been going on.

so many times i've tried to pick myself up, so many times i've tried to stand up and pluck up courage to face the reality. time and again i've fallen, harder and faster than the first. i've been tempted to ask this - "is fate playing a sport of me?" but yet somehow, fate plays only a small role in determining life. a large part lies in my own hands, and it is through my own hands that i've created this mess.

i'm just so tired, so drained, so weary, so jaded, that i wanna drop everything and give up and lose hope.

but i can't. i won't. i'll fight it. i'll fight it... right to the very end.

wacky pms

2009-08-25T23:41:00.002+08:00

.... which exudes extreme paranoia when mere little things get in my way. the same damn problem together all these while.

and oh my god OH MY GOD I CAN'T FUCKING BELIEVE YOUR NERVE. you are an incredibly fucked up bitch that coerced me into acceding to your demands, and all you brought to me from the start is extra distress. i should've had the balls to cut you off from the start.

on a happy note, i feel infinitely liberated now.

for a mo' i lost my bearings

2009-08-23T02:24:00.000+08:00

wish there was some way to make things right. wish there was some way i can undo the past, redo the present. have you any idea how many things i'd change if i were given the chance? have you idea of how much fucking anguish it is causing me to face up to reality? no, you have no idea. nobody has any inkling of just how distressed this is making me feel.

2009-08-22T00:32:00.000+08:00

no, i don't need to know what good you can do.. i don't need to know how good you are at something.. i don't need to know how much you know. i don't need to know what you can do.. BUT i need to know what you are lacking, the things you suck at, what's your fear and weaknesses? if you can come to terms with letting others know all these about yourself, then you'll come to tempt me....

being sick's a bitch

2009-08-15T23:52:00.001+08:00

i really hate how i have to complain that i have to stay home on the weekends, because i came down the flu and subsequently holed up at home for days. of course, it gets kind of depressing after a while.

today's feeling better, except that i'm still plagued with an incessant cough and not having enough sleep (hence always looking listless). the moment i woke up, i beckoned to mum that i want bread with fried eggs + ham + cheese. it's fucking good!

anyway, G.I Joe's da shitxz.............. NOT. it's just the movie title, the comfortable seat and its ending are what i love most.

happy birthday to these august babies! (whether it's advanced or belated):

yu ting, su ling, rena, rad and wei siang.

being an eoy baby like me sucks.

life

2009-08-11T00:37:00.001+08:00

why is it that i'm worried that i'm starting to enjoy this routine i've eased myself into?

whatever happened to those careless dreams about traipsing across the world and my far-flung ambitions?

such thoughts still pay a visit sometimes, but only fleetingly. mindsets inevitably evolve with age, and as for now, it feels as if nothing would make me content.

i wish i have the courage to just drop everything, and pursue what i've been yearning for.

who to determine what i want anyways?

who will benefit anyways?

who to judge my feelings anyways?

2009-08-06T02:42:00.001+08:00

it is better to have some innocent pleasures you can look back on when the going gets tough

thought this is inspiring when i saw this from xinying's msn pm.

i'm so fucking stunned

2009-08-05T20:27:00.003+08:00

it's easy to be overwhelmed by something special someone said earlier on, despite the fact that he/she is like a tape recorder, aka unnecessarily saying the same thing over and over again.

but the outcome?

how? what? why? when? arghh.....!! i've crazy endless torrent of notes to study for. fuck! i don't know how to do, what to do and where to start. too fucking much work for too little marks..........!!! just fucking great!! should have seen it comin'......

and why the fuck do i have tummy ache now..???!!? (not menstrual... just fucking annoying ache)

FUCK...!!! (don't mind me, it's therapeutic)

dailies

2009-08-03T04:17:00.002+08:00

30 July

dinner + jiao wei-ing session + movie with marcus.

the freaky psychotic main character's acting is really fantastic. the bloody scene is sucha gore to me that i had to grab marcus' arm (but i'm pretty damn sure he's not hurt :p), but i like how unpredictable the story plot is so i won't find it a bore.

2 Aug

spent close to five freaking hours mugging with wendy. 2/5 of the time i was really studying, whereas the rest of the time was spent, uh.. some sharing sessions + daydreaming + mp3.

Gelare's blueberry cheesecake yoghurt ice cream ♥

and btw did i mention i was having BAD HAIR DAY? it's all thanks to sunsilk that my hair looks like crispy tresses. bahhhhhhhh!

on a happy note, i'm feeling quite pleased with myself 'cause i've been spending less on unnecessary expenditures include those for food and togs, and i sure as hell know that i'm really putting in alot of effort on that. :p

self-reminder: get my ass back to regent sec to collect my band cert! wooooo it's finally done, like what, after 7 months?

good ol' days

2009-08-01T22:23:00.005+08:00

OMG I MISS YOU GUYS!!!!!!

class 4/4 '08. during graduation day

especially wendy, jocelyn and rena! hope you girls are doing fine. =)

people like them can actually make somewhere as boring as classroom a truly wonderful place. ♥

and regent wind symphony. (syf '07)

sorry for my @&^#@&*^#*@& face though :p

little things

2009-07-29T23:09:00.003+08:00

it's the little little things that make my day..something someone said, something someone did, something i saw, something i did, something i see... little little things.

just gotta keep going through shit for that piece of candy, that worthwhile, satisfying piece of sweet, sweet candy.

that one little tiny piece of sweet candy will beat the pile of shit, anytime.

unsettled

2009-07-26T22:51:00.004+08:00

i don't know what i want and i feel restless. i'm confined in my own space and time. i don't know what to do or should i do. mixed feelings and mixed directions.

***

so i met up with muthu after his work in the evening.

caught harry potter and the hbp.

it's already ridiculous enough that throughout the show they are always randomly jumping scenes for no good reason, but for the whole two and the half hours?! -_-

dinner at subway.

and wendy leong please take care of your health uh!

it rang on the dot

2009-07-23T00:16:00.000+08:00

what's worse than to woke up and see the time on my phone reads 7.14am. and next thing you know, my phone rings at exactly 7.15am.

best part of all, i'm waking up from a dream. a dream where i was on vacation in dreamland, woken up abruptly, just like that, at 7.14am. sigh, life..... likes to play tricks on ya, doesn't it.

ate too much

2009-07-21T21:08:00.001+08:00

couple of days ago i had fried kway tiao, hokkien mee, satays, chicken wings, carrot cake with fucking fresh oysters, sotongs, and sambal stingray! yes all FRIED food for dinner.. at chomp chomp!

honestly the stingray from there is the best i've tasted so far.

plus the past nights i had subway melt and turkey breast from subway.

and today i had sushi!

yumm.

stuck by choice

2009-07-19T19:54:00.000+08:00

i'm not happy,

not happy,

not happy...

AT ALL

just 'cause i don't bitch about it doesn't mean my life's all rainbow and sunshine

it's worse coz it pours when it rains

dailies

2009-07-14T23:42:00.002+08:00

11 July

dinner at town + chilling out at Coffeebean with kelly, lynette, martin, delson, kevin, ces and jl. the gossip kings shared their very clearly detailed stories and how one/some of them got this and that. =P

my interest was certainly piqued, and i think we girls kept going "ya then leh.....?" hahahah.

tsk. i thought guys are only into tech stuff, hot stuff or something like that. i was wrong.

12 July

so i spent the freaking six hours mugging my ass off at Starbuck.. along with ice white choco mocha.

then i had this sudden whim for.. massive daydreaming. maybe i should learn how to admit shameless lies about really studying, so that my dignity would stay intact and my nose wouldn't be the length of Pinocchio's.

13 July

caught 9.30pm show with ting er, jayken, ah shu and fish.

maybe just "The Haunting In Connecticut" without "based on true story" could be enjoyable. it does make a big difference for some reason. nobody wants to be made a fool.

and this goddamn show isn't scary at all.

but if it's really inspired by true story, and if they stayed in that haunted house for two years with demons sodomizing them, i think they must have liked it!

14 July

went studying with wendy.

before i knew it, my atm card usage is dramatically increasing almost everyday. maybe i should really land myself on chopping board if i continue doing so...

oh and i've officially moved back home.

hello Home! ♥

airheaded

2009-07-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

i feel very lacking in thoughts recently.

dailies

2009-07-08T02:07:00.002+08:00

6 July

this morning i was woken up by my phone's buzz. someone sent me an sms saying

"you know wad..? i hate fri.. ur always so relunctant to go have lunch with me aft every lesson &so i'll always have to go hungry aft that.. not that i like to go imm or wad. i'm just fond of their food there. i'm so poor thing.. :x"

i was kinda amused. like why bother to make yourself more stupid when you are stupid enough already right.

anyway

dinner was done at JP's din tai fung (after studying). well nothing much was going on there except for ting er's and ah siao's company. then off to safra for pool (sat down there and stoned to be precise).

i finally completed the mission of clearing msn contacts of boring people. that's because engaging in online conversation that lack of substance leave me the feeling of jumping off the building.

ok that's randomness.

7 July

muthu called at 8.34am. but being a chronic heavy sleeper i am, i continued sleeping in till 12. i then proceeded to meet him, still looking like a zombie hybrid.

he waited for at least 6 hours. but he was smart enough to bring his laptop along to play dota in the library lah.. despite that, he still offered movie treat. Ice Age 3.. ermmm what more can you ask for this animated show? except the mild humor. well..

while we were chatting over dinner, he mentioned about someone who chatted him up few days ago. well i don't see a need to pinpoint a problem unless things get out of hands and make me fuming mad, but just do every one the honour of leaving me the fuck alone when you literally know nothing at all. it's not as if you're a milf. noob.

muthu's still as crappy as ever. ha. thanks for the day anyway. =)

esther's 21st

2009-07-05T21:36:00.000+08:00

and roo's turning 18 on 3rd. happee burfday my dear seniors!

on the way to Central (before heading to Regent Grove)

yu ting, ya qing, ze ting and hai qing joined us thereafter and woooot! had great time catching up with one another and indulging in reminiscence as well. =)

hmmm. suddenly i miss playing flute.

RWS will be going for taiwan trip at the end of year. i wanna goooooooooooo!!!!!!!!

ROARRR

2009-06-30T20:36:00.001+08:00

today i accidentally broke my fingernails. twice.

got another ultra big hole burnt in my pocket.

the interior of my bags are tearing when i bought them not long ago.

muthu said my figure is like a glutinous ball now.

i think my cheeks are getting puffier!

the pair of slip ons i'd usually leave at doorstep before entering the house was stolen. and to the one who stole it: may you suffer from garlic fart for life! nb.

sigh

2009-06-29T00:53:00.000+08:00

still feeling extremely empty.

dailies

2009-06-28T11:21:00.007+08:00

26 June

after the lesson i headed to town to meet them for lunch and movie. initially the plan was to catch Pelham 123 but it wasn't readily available at the cathay, so we settled for this.

it's damn hilarious and we were laughing so hard throughout the show.

and i saw weiyang aka da tou! to think we could bump into each other among the crowd when we're both petite. :p

27 June

town @ night.

at the very least it's combined element of action + COMEDY for this 2.5hr show, although there's so many redundant parts and characters. i don't get why can't everyone stop swooning over megan fox btw.

okay i'm actually blogging in zombie-like trance. i need to get back to sleep already.

i had marble cheesecake too

2009-06-25T19:08:00.001+08:00

note to self:
no matter how sweet the make-believe of mochachino in your mouth, no matter how rich the smell of coffee your imagination make you to believe, no matter how tempting the thought of the brown liquid touching the tastebud on your tongue, there will be no more caffein/coffee stops on weekdays nights.

for obvious reason, one of the severe one is not to look like a panda/zombie hybrid on the next morning.

screwed with life, not.

2009-06-16T18:44:00.002+08:00

i've been devoting 80% of my time out keeping myself busy when possible. seems that blogging is a little redundant now.

14 June

so i met up with wendy, still feeling a little grumpy from yesterday. i had to rant about some terribly unpleasant stuff happened on saturday and the mention of it is making my blood boils. GAH!

all's fine now, after an incredible load is lifted off my shoulder. phew.

along with some funny incidents at amk hub while we were making our way down to first floor. poor wendy had to be made victim of this. :p

dinner.

15 June
being absent-minded entirely for hours, that i ended up had to muster nothing to get inside my brain while in lesson. and the few hours of sleep the night before threatened to pull my eyelids shut.

wendy specially travelled all the way down to admiralty just to fetch me. wee! *giggle like a 14 year old*

here come our itchy mouth! :p

NYNY
choco fondue
movie

and three times, THREE TIMES in two days, different promoters of different areas approached me asking "hello are you a student or working adult?". that's presumably telling me that i do not look like a student at all. wtf.

next must watch: Transformers 2/The Haunting in Connecticut

2009-06-14T12:28:00.000+08:00

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, but

dailies

2009-06-10T23:49:00.011+08:00

1 June
movie

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2 June
Gelare's oreo cheesecake
study session with Wendy
dinner - seoul garden (love the taste of the steamboat soup WE created! AWESOMEEE)

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3 June
Starbucks' hazelnut swirl and dark mocha frap
study session with Wendy
dinner - korean cuisine
movie

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5 June
movie

met up with jl, del, kevin and ces at northpoint
dinner - japanese beef patty (lol everyone's coincidentally eating the same stuff)
Kenneth's farewell party/bbq
celebrated Kelly's 20th and Ahshu's 21st

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7 June
study session
mac's caramel frap

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8 June
lessons at dhoby ghaut till 4
auntie anne's parmesan cheese (love it!)
met up with jl, del, kevin and ces
dinner - Aston's grilled salmon fillet + orange juice
movie
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9/10 June
intensive study session at Starbucks

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that pretty much sum up my weeks.

my complexion and chapped lip are totally fucked up. even drinking litres of water can't help.

and shit.. it's second week of June already??

something in me died

2009-06-06T01:46:00.000+08:00

it's been days, yet am still unable to get over it. and it is eating into every aspect of my life.

i need to come to terms. but i can't.

why is it so fucking hard? i don't understand.

all the cliched advice went on deaf ears - "hang out with friends" and stuff like that were ignored but when i did try, i actually began to feel a lil better to be in the company of people.

but.. whenever i see my handphone lying around, i'll start to wonder and miss his random phone calls to me. and his jokes that never fail to amuse me..

2009-05-31T13:07:00.000+08:00

you must like what you do to go do what you like.

unmoving

2009-05-30T14:43:00.000+08:00

it's scary how fast time goes by, passing me, who is at some point, lost in time, and other times.. stuck.

Oh hi,

2009-05-29T18:57:00.000+08:00

truth be told, i can't remember the last i felt so productive. productive in many days straight. have forgone some luxury and gain some. i like to indulge in food and erm, more food.

hmm... need to get some exercise.

i've started studying again. it's a good thing.

and the not so good thing is that i've been spending three digits on silly stuff again. okay that was like weeks ago and not now, so be proud of me.

latest discovery

2009-05-29T02:46:00.000+08:00

"you look like you're diao-ing people when not smiling" - jaime.

"you don't look decent" - jaime.

"you can even enter the pub without the need of showing IC lah" - whoever i met recently.

"do you smoke? you look like you do 'cause you always look so sick and pale" - xiao yi.

it sucks when i can't tell you what's on my mind,

2009-05-25T04:26:00.001+08:00

when in the past you tried to seek reassurance, but i childishly insecure with regards to my resentment towards you.

guess i've neglected the little signs that would ultimately coagulate to form your decision.

and it goes round and round

2009-05-12T09:29:00.008+08:00

monday
so it wasn't a pleasant day to start off with.

now i'm beginning to wonder how those dense morons actually brighten up my day without me realising it. as if i do give a fuck to what you've done to me. like how old do you think i am? FIVE? bodoh.

okay and i think wendy is the best thing ever coz the poor her had to suffocate her ears with my ranting. :p
-

tuesday
instead of bumming around at home, i decided to get my butt off the house to catch The Ramen Girl with kenneth, ah siao, ting er and travis. curry beef rice set at ajisen ramen for dinner.

slacked at ljs to pass time. listened to them gossipping like nobody's business.
oh! guys can be gossip queens too. tsk.
-

thursday
ms tay's quote of the day - "eh buay sai lah!"
when i sat with leg crossed and was caught for my untrimmed fingernails.

studying session at mac with serene and winnie.
-

friday
after lesson i headed to meet annie. then subway for dinner with the sgcmates.
their most interesting topic of the day - how they indirectly reject and avoid the girl they dislike.

candyempire's mix and match choco sucks. shall stick to fruits and maltese next time.
-

saturday blueeeees
today i woke up with dreamy eyes, no thanks to the extra morning lesson when i could've slept in.

bugis for lunch.
bras basah to attempt some daunting tasks.

and 17 Again is no longer screening!!!@#$%^&*
-

sunday
Starbuck's apple crumble cheesecake is lip-smacking delicious!

i had a terribly awful and unappetizing lunch, or it's my teeth that is too weak for fish fillet? we were late for X-men show! love the amazing stunts in this show, but the ending is rather disappointing.

if you ain't here, there's just no air.

2009-05-11T00:06:00.000+08:00

have been turning in at such unearthly hour of late. i just wanted to sleep. and because i wanted to, to make the days pass faster but i couldn't.

anyway

Star Trek's the another great show well worth my $8.50. the way the 17 years old crew speaks is damn hilarious and cute. hahahaha. so much better than the blockhead Spock.

we could've watched it at westmall instead of cwp but kenneth claimed that someone actually masturbated at one of the cinema seats there -_-

botak jones for dinner.
celebrated ahsiao's 18th.
home.

-

2009-05-06T23:54:00.001+08:00

after all the fantasies
I couldn't see past what could of been
you were a part of me
but unhappy to be couldn't handle it
cause it was

selfish, of me to give you my love
and tell you that we would never be undone
selfish, to want you here everyday
even though we were much too far away
selfish, to think there was nothing wrong
with me helplessy hanging on to you
selfish, my heart was stuck in denial
there were too many miles between us

dailies

2009-04-28T11:54:00.001+08:00

friday
- school
- lunched with jaime before heading back for another lesson
- slacked at lot1 with those who sacrified their beauty sleep to accompany me
- dinner at clementi

sunday
- my last piano lesson with ms ong
- caught Handsome Suit with wendy
- Sakae Sushi
- listened to wendy's grandma stories about her miserable life in secondary school :p
- tuition at serene's
while on my way back home, a girl and i sorta kept looking at each other as i thought i'm somehow acquainted with her. initially i did not give a damn until we alighted from lrt and she approached me, asking if i'm from regent band. hahaha and i think she's very cute! regretted saying "有缘在见" when going to our separate way (since we're staying a block away from each other). boohooo.

-

2009-04-27T00:38:00.001+08:00

it happened too sudden...

last night i had the strong urge to call you, wanted to find out how have you been doing. but i gave up.

been feeling lost, can't find the words to say
spending all my time, stuck in yesterday
where you are is where i wanna be.

210409

2009-04-21T00:14:00.000+08:00

no more messing around anymore, no more risking not doing well.

this time round i'm all on my own. kinda daunting but stepping out of the comfort zone is a good thing i should say.

if you are first, you are first. if you are second, you are nothing.

exhaustion

2009-04-17T22:41:00.001+08:00

i woke up feeling pretty damn pleased because i managed to jump right out of the comfy zone without struggling with the snooze button. and because i felt so good after the shower, i thought i'd take my own sweet time preparing for class.

then nightmare started.

i looked at the time, and knew that i was already late. on the way to there, i met a classmate and was told that the class was cancelled.

ARGHH!!!

i walked back to the station, furiously. then xiao yi called and he complained as well, along with some vulgarities.

in the afternoon i headed back to school after some nice sleep at home. met another classmate and yeah, another irresponsible momfork teacher on MC.

surprise... surprise!!

fuck you bmc, seriously.

then jaime to the rescue. we went for lunch and the bloody cheena uncle deliberately charged me $5.80 for the vege rice!!

gah!!!%$@^%$#@

-

anyways.

it's been an exhausting week.

HAPPY!!

2009-04-16T23:39:00.000+08:00

I PASSED MY G8 PIANO PRACTICAL! WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

and new phone's on its way.

=D

2009-04-13T10:06:00.000+08:00

sometimes things go wrong,
they always do.
but mistakes aren't like a song,
and when it starts to rain,
then maybe you'll have to sleep through the pain.

the week in retrospect

2009-04-12T21:58:00.002+08:00

the most enjoyable time was when meeting up with friends for some lil catch up. it feels as if the incredible load is lifted off my chest. at the very least i have nothing bottling up inside myself now.

fast and furious 4's da shitxz.

friday

2009-04-03T19:42:00.003+08:00

today i woke up with a burning sore throat. ouch.

the pain somewhat became numb while i was devouring subway's turkey breasts with love. yum.

and it's so coincident that the girl whom jaime talked about she recently made friend with from her campus, happened to be someone i know! and the three of us were once band members too. hahah.

speaking of band, i realised that more than half the number of people i know are/were from uniformed or disciplined group cca........ ah, a nostalgia for my band practise days.

in happier news..

it'a gonna be weekend again!

surprise... surprise

2009-04-01T09:31:00.004+08:00

gah!

wish that my head would just explode so i won't have to think of anything.
-

anyway, congratulation to RWS for finally clinching a Gold for SYF'09.. after the consecutive Silvers for the past years. =)

hmm

2009-03-25T19:15:00.000+08:00

well.

finally i can have a place i call my own. it's peaceful, but that brat (i better pray he's not my aunt's neighbour) who annoys the shit outta me spoils everything at the very wrong time!

moving on, i've been eating good stuff these few days. I LOVE THEM ALL!

PERFECT.

but alas, whatever the hell i ate gimme the runs. not so perfecto.

right.

this afternoon i embarked on a mission to get done with everything related to secondary school, which should've been done weeks ago. note to self: remind esther/mr teo personally for the band cert, since i don't think i can trust the anyone for this.

lunch @ subway, or honey mustard and mayonnaise sauce to be precise since the generous staff seemed to be giving free flow of sauce. followed by a little catch up with wendy.....

last but not least, wendy and jocelyn's 17th on the 24th and 26th =) happy burfday loves!!

i had a bad day.

2009-03-21T23:53:00.001+08:00

i'm bloody sure i wasn't nervous at that time.

because i wanted to get everything done with soon, i thought it would be infinitely easier to start with pieces followed by scales.

instead of a smashing sucess, i suffered a dismal failure.

i panicked when there was some sudden break down in between the pieces. after all, it can't be hard to just play like how i normally play... right??

scales?? fingers not sturdy enough for arpeggios.

sight reading? forgot about articulations and dynamics.

aural? cmi.

GG.

all my hard work for the past days was for naught.

just a quickie...

2009-03-19T18:12:00.000+08:00

the whole week i was feeling kinda jaded about anything for some unknown reason.

i've got much homework and essays that are stacking up like a mountain. sigh, there aren't really enough hours in the day. i think the only way to tackle this is to never sleep.

ooooooooo and marcus now looks vehly ke ai! :p (i think he will be over the moon if he's reading this. heheheh) caught Coming Soon. another horror show which i didn't react much to.

okay.. since i've booked the exam studio for tonight, might as well get my ass off to there now. ciao!

sunday's hate

2009-03-15T23:49:00.001+08:00

bad start to the day.

i think the teacher was screwed. and there... i had no choice but to suffocate my ears with utterly redundant comments she unleashed. thanks to that, it caused the whole lesson to be shorten by a good half an hour so you can imagine the amount of verbal diarrhoea she had subjected on me.

like, why did i have to get annoyed first thing in the morning?!

gimme a break.

2009-03-15T12:01:00.001+08:00

haaaa! just one of the delightful things the internet has blessed us with.
=)

sick

2009-03-13T20:42:00.000+08:00

okay it's not just 'minor' flu anymore. arghhhhhhh
this is what excessive binging does to me.

all thanks to...

bubble tea with double pearl
too much seafood
milk choco (toblerone.. whatever.)
applying thick layer of peanut choco butter on bread
cheesy sausage
calamari
lemon chicken wing
shake shake jelly drink
brownie

and...

sushi for meal. ;\

lost

2009-03-06T20:27:00.000+08:00

am constantly fighting a losing battle with the zzzzz monster every morning.

it's terrible, really. why do i even bother to set my alarm to go off at 7.15am when i'd wake up at a not-so-late 8am anyway? plus that extra 45 min of sleep gained isn't of top-notch quality, considering how i have to get up every 5 minutes to turn off the snooze.

ahhhhhh HELP!

the week

2009-03-02T13:42:00.004+08:00

ahhh it's monday again.

the week is gonna be crazy-ass busy compared to the week before. and am gonna be busy with piano exam preparation and the idea of being busy.

with a renewed determination to stay home every after tedious long hours in school, i'd make my way to buy sushi (my recent favourites are unagi and crab meat salad. woot!), which will make for lunch, brunch and early dinner. :p

slept till i woke up with a pounding headache, and had a few bizarre dreams.

speaking of which, i have been having them too often lately. like, i actually dreamt that i bought a jack russell puppy from a vending machine for $3, a decision which i regretted it moments later and dumped the pup.

-_-

thought of the day

2009-02-28T11:42:00.004+08:00

love
is so beguiling, yet utterly crippling at times.

There's a place that I go that nobody knows
Where the rivers flow and I call it home
And there's no more lies in the darkness there's light
And nobody cries, there's only butterflies

The sun is on my side and takes me for a ride
I smile up to the sky, I know I'll be alright

maths is teh sex yo!

2009-02-25T17:17:00.004+08:00

i could even calculate

8 - 2 = 4

(-8) - (-6) = -14

which explains why i usually suck big ass time in maths and eventually receive a d7 for my exam. hmmmmmm.

blues because...

2009-02-23T20:49:00.006+08:00

today i received three comments in a row from different person that i look rather fierce at the first sight. thrrrrrreeeeee is ALOT okay! nabeh.

but at least now they don't think i really am. heheheh.

and despite my weariness, pool session with the jokers never fail to keep me amused all day. =)

talk about crrrrrrrravings!

2009-02-22T19:26:00.001+08:00

it's pouring heavily and ah well, stuck at home and i am killing myself softly fantasizing about juicy steak... cheesecake... swiss chocolate caramel... sambal stingray... and buttery prawns.

and this...

tiramisu, mango sorbet and belgian chocolate

ooooooooh.

my appetite is ginormous now after a horrid weekend holed up at home, no thanks to a bout of blues.

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2009-02-20T17:36:00.001+08:00

I FUCKING WANT TO BREAK SOMETHING.

URGH!

I just wanna be alone tonight

I just wanna take a little breather

‘Cause lately all we do is fight

And everytime it cuts me deeper